It's now 2am, I'm not feeling good. pretty sad... I can't fall asleep too. I just had a msn conversation. I feel that, we are growing up, have to learn a way to be more matured, more experienced. We work for our dreams, we have our milestones. But look back, we don't have much closed friends already, maybe not even one. And no one knows me so well, this is the fact, everyone has to accept it.

That is a misunderstanding conversation. It brings up some old memories, that don't worth a cent anymore, and they are not appear for long time in my mind. Because I still have to move on, achieve my goals. Someone has headed them up in the conversation, for me they are meaningless to talk about, they are not being aware of anymore. What I wish to know is, where am I heading toward.

Anyhow I don't wish to talk about it again here, I'm pretty sad and hopeless. What should I do? To gain the confidence. But I can tell her, I'm truly for her.