TC Life Notes - Pee Stop...

It has been a week, or more than 7 days, rain keeps falling onto the warm ground. The sky looks cloudy for the past few days, just like what I've shown a week ago.

Today I come to office as usual. This morning, I stepped out and locked my doors, got ready to start my journey at 6:25am, I looked at the sky, it's dark... seem nothing at all, but I could feel that, it's quite windy and I was feeling cold. After 20 minutes of driving, the sky was getting brighter, not so clear but gloomy. I was telling myself, it's another rainy day.

After I got into my office, not long later, it started with heavy rain, without any alert.

I woke up at 7:10am, the brain was fresh and peaceful, looked into the sky, it's pretty clear, guess it's going to be a sunny day. She was still sleeping soundly in bed. I was not going to do anything at that moment, thinking about...

It's going to be a busy, long... working day for her, I was not going to wake her up, as she used to wake up late, having pressure in her works, so I just let her rest longer. I laid on my own bed, stared at the ceiling for a while. We would go for sushi at Sunway Pyramid for our lunch, as planned yesterday, so I was just waiting, thinking about... What should I do for the day. I knew that I had to finish up some software development base on the files I had got.

Around 10am, she woke up, and she told me that we were not going for sushi, my brain was just blank, I didn't know what could I do, and thought, what else I could prepare for her. I didn't prepare enough foods / fruits in my fridge earlier, as she preferred fruits for her breakfast, somehow I just prepared her a cup of warm milo. It's pretty sad to mention about this, and I'd got them prepared earlier.

Around 12pm plus, I sent her to work. On our journey, the sky wasn't looking good, it's getting cloudy and it could be heavy rain pretty sooner. After that on my way back to home, it was raining heavily, i was cruising slowly heading the way back to my home, I reached to a neigbourhood named Kota Kemuning, thought to have lunch at there but I lost appetite, decided not to get into my house, but I drove around the area, I came to a place and it caught my attention.

How often do your guys get your mind away from busy work, relax yourselves with having nice sceneries? Here I stay for a while, I stay cool and think of her again, maybe she is busy recently, getting more OT / assignments from her superior, and I notice that she has been thinking a lot lately too, this may cause her more tired and pressure, she hopes to achieve to another level, to do much more better in her career.

I just hope that she can utilize her time in a better way. Work is not our life, we can go for sports, or exercises, I believe this can make us more healthier and energetic. She takes up piano class in her free time, this is always encouraging, I will guide her on this too! I have done till grade 5, believe or not ? : ) Just like me, I can be a serious man, work hard during my working hours, try to optimize / speed up my works, play hard during my badminton game, and I can be a home sweet guy, take good care of my family and the love one. I try not to put work into my personal life, as I put herself before me. Recently this is bothering me much, cause I care about her very much, focusing too much on her works may affect our relationship, maybe... I hope not... This is kind of phobia for me, as I had this bad experience, I have been trying hard to stand up from the failure, and hope not to happen on again, it's really worrying... :S

I shared with her yesterday, that we would go to the US and Canada for vacation next year. I believed we could make it, and please trust me, my dear... We would plan it out, hopefully we would make at least a trip each year.

After about 30 minutes, I left... I drove around to see the houses. Nice house is one of my dreams too.. : )

Oh my goodness... Yesterday I played a few songs on her piano, it was not good at all. I used to play Mariage D’ Amour during my school time, it was very well, but I couldn't do it right yesterday, timing was lost, fingers were not touching the right keys, both hands were not matching and etc... Feeling sad...

I am just done my breakfast. While I was taking my breakfast, I flipped the newspaper, to read some news and articles. There was 1 advertisement came to my attention. Kitaro is going to perform at Arena of Stars in Genting Highland! Wao... That's cool!!!

I listen to Kitaro's music since in year 1988, loving his music very much, specially the Silk Road series. When I am feeling stress, I will listen to some light and easy music, Kitaro's albums are always the first choice. I don't have to listen to the entire album, but just at least giving me 5 to 10 minutes, I close my eyes, with my headphone right between my ears, let the music surrounding my head, follow the rhythm, don't think and enjoy it.

His convert will be on 30th November and 1st December, I don't know if I am going to watch it or not, usually the ticket fee is pretty expensive for a professional musician like him. Will reconsider it again, and I don't know my dear loves it or not...

Today is not a good day. I had an argument with my dad in the morning while having our breakfast. It's not serious, but the feeling is very bad, and this is going to drag for few days. Any unhappy thing that is happened between me and family, or with my love one, it will never make me feel good for long time. This sounds bad to me, maybe I just care too much for them.

After that, I am thinking, am I too much? Or I have just to let them be, set them free? I have no idea... I'm just feeling sad.

Bad feeling always remind me to do better in future, not to mistake again. I have this character all the while, I will never promise without using my brain, because this is going to make me worse! I will only make a statement within my ability. As I told my dear love, I can achieve for whatever I have promised her, just the matter of time; But I will never promise when I have doubt on it.

Back in year 1983, there was 1 incident happened to me and my brother. We were studying in the same school, my mum reminded me all the time, to take good care of the brother in school. One day, my brother lost his money and we went for noodle during our break, so sad that I didn't share with him, and I was scold by my mum in the evening. This incident always reminds me to treat my brothers and sister good in future, in order not to have bad feeling or any regret! Hehee... So things that are not being done so well, I'll take initiative to help, or just do it myself.

Being the eldest one in the family is not easy, there are certain responsiblities to carry out. And he/she can be a bad boy/girl. I'm very sorry to my dad. Sigh....

After phone talk with her, I'm feeling awaken. Something is bothering me? I have no idea... I just can't sleep and sit on my bed again, turn on the light, switch on my notebook and start typing here.

The mind is just all about her. I never find this feeling with anyone other than her, this feeling is very strong, and it's totally different, nothing negative.

I am going to change job soon, hoping to have a short break before I start with new job. This is a regular practise for me, I always take a short break, stay cool and recharge myself before joining a new employer. This time, I would like to spend some times with her, maybe to have a trip, enjoy some great times, or time for just both of us, but the timing isn't look great. She is pretty busy recently, maybe she is workaholic, hoping to be more motivated again, to polish her communication skill in English. Of cause this is always really encouraging, and she always has my spiritual support.

Think about the trip to her hometown in Ipoh, it is pretty relaxing and healthy. I am thinking when are we going to make it again? It's a peaceful city, fresh air and free from traffic, just like my hometown in Seremban. she concerns that I may be bored but I was not, instead the place gives me a chance to relax my mind, to have a healthier lifestyle, like no different going to ClubMed. :) The important thing is... We are accompanying each other. :)

In my mind, job is important in our life, but it's not our life. I will work hard during my working hours, but... For personal life, I will try not to bring up any topic related to my work. I'll spend my free time with my love one, at least to prove that I am keeping a space and time for us. And also spare my time for my badminton game, these are enough for me so far, I believe I am capable to accommodate. Of cause she means everything to me, and she appears first ever in my mind on whatever I am going to do...

Oh... I think I have to get back to my bed, try to catch up some sleep... :)

After I've tendered my resignation, I am feeling more relieve, not because I don't care anymore, but the feeling is just like this. Works are still being assigned to me, and yet to have time to relax, I still have to keep it up, move on... gear up to finish up the oustanding works that are undertaken.

Think about it, I have been working here for 26 months, and this month is going to be the last month. I've learned a lot from my dear colleagues from Malaysia and the US, and built up good friendship with them.  They are talented and friendly, helpful and professional.

Back in year 2005, I joined Wappsol in May, this job was going to be quite different, cause I worked for the US company, it sounded challenging to me, and it's well organized. Few months later, I was attending Microsoft TechEd in Singapore with all my colleagues, going to meet up the US team as well. First thing in my mind was, how was I going to communicate with them? I had been speaking in Chinese during my previous employment!!! I knew I had to learn it.

This picture was taken in a studio in Singapore, these people travelled from the US, UK, Malaysia, met up in Singapore. Lynn requested to have this, so that she could show to the rest in the US office. :)

Time flies, I stay here for 2 years plus, I've learned a lot from here, the software development management, project handling, communication and etc.. People like William, ChiewLam, DanBond, SiewLing  and Joanne have left, and who else? Yes... Alexander and me are going to leave too, both of us have got better offer, and I will get back, work on my expertise.

Here is another picture, that is taken before Chinese New Year. Lynn paid a visit to us and we had a team dinner.

We see some new faces, as compare to the previous picture. We were having a team dinner, titled as Shanghai Night, so we had to get our dress ready for the dinner, and I looked so funny with this:

my knee....  :p

Ipoh, is quite a famous place in Malaysia. It's the place where my girlfriend from. Hollywood star Michelle Yeoh is originate from Ipoh. And it famous to bring up pretty girls / ladies in Malaysia, :)  So is my dear pretty? You have to say "Yes!", okay??? Hahaa....

It's pretty excited to meet her parents, as she has told me that her parents is funny, and fun to talk with, but I always have an attitude to talk with elderly people, I do respect them, but I just can't make fun at all, I can be very crazy at a time, but I need some times to get rid of it, somehow... I have to give good impression to them else her parents is going to sweep me away using a broom, ya?

There are some nice famous foods, Bean Sprouts with Chicken (芽菜鸡), noodle serves with shredded chicken meat and prawns (沙河粉), white coffee (白咖啡), DimSum (点心） and others, all of these are yum-yum! She brings me for Bean Sprouts with Chicken, the chicken meat is smooth and nice, noodle is nice too, pretty smooth and delicious. Since she is back to her home, we don't really eat much at outside, and her mum is good in cooking, of cause eating at home is much more cleaner and healthier, right? Her mum has prepared a lot of nice foods, beside the regular meals, we have rambutan, mangoteen, durian! These fruits are going to kill me, and I hope that I'm not getting sick after all these heaty fruits.

Wao! Can you imagine? My life is so healthy when I stay in Ipoh. There are not much entertainments as compare to the life in Kuala Lumpur, I will sleep early at around 11pm, and I have no worry at all, not working anyway :), and I wake up at around 8am, read newspaper, take regular meals on time, watch television programs, and I have no need to spend money at all. Nevertheless, when you are staying in Kuala Lumpur, well said, you are not going to spend money, BUT at least you have to pay toll for all the express ways that you are going to use, and you don't have choice.

Ipoh has many limestone caves due to the karstic formation around it, as I have visited to numbers of them in the past, like San Bao Dong (三保洞), Nan Tian Dong （南天洞）, Ling Xian Yan （灵仙岩), Perak Cave - Pi-Li Dong (霹雳洞). We visit to Ji Le Dong (极乐洞) that I've never been before. It's cooling inside the cave. As we walk through the cave, there is another nice scenery.

Time flies and I've never been here for long time, open up the editor to write something. I feel ashame here, hehee... How are my friends doing? I wish all of you are doing good, ya? :)

I was pretty busy with my works for the past 6 weeks. As some of my friends have knew about it, I am holding 2 jobs currently. One for US SchoolDude.com and  part-time for MultiPurpose Solutions that is under a public listed company named MultiPurpose Holding. This a transition period for me, as I have been looking forward, to get back on my previous track, developing financial products like stock broking system, banking system or insurance system. It's pretty tiring to have 2 jobs at the same time, "Tired!" in the sense of mentally tired, not physically, sitting all day long, looking at the keyboard and monitor, thinking the logical flow of a system and do coding, testing and etc..., just believe I am strong and capable enough to handle them. :)

Beside my jobs, I always receive spiritual support from someone. She supports me all the time and I do feel touched. She spends her free time to chat with me in MSN, we have some topics during office hours, in a way to reduce my pressure from works, I feel relieve when I chat with her, she has been understanding, caring and concerning about me from time to time. Of cause MSN is not the only method of conversation we have, I will spend my time with her after a day work. :) We may go out for nice dinner / supper, as I've mentioned earlier, she enjoys eating, and she can eat a lot, that is out of my expectation, but it's not a big deal, as long as she is happy, :)