After that, I am thinking, am I too much? Or I have just to let them be, set them free? I have no idea... I'm just feeling sad.
Bad feeling always remind me to do better in future, not to mistake again. I have this character all the while, I will never promise without using my brain, because this is going to make me worse! I will only make a statement within my ability. As I told my dear love, I can achieve for whatever I have promised her, just the matter of time; But I will never promise when I have doubt on it.
Back in year 1983, there was 1 incident happened to me and my brother. We were studying in the same school, my mum reminded me all the time, to take good care of the brother in school. One day, my brother lost his money and we went for noodle during our break, so sad that I didn't share with him, and I was scold by my mum in the evening. This incident always reminds me to treat my brothers and sister good in future, in order not to have bad feeling or any regret! Hehee... So things that are not being done so well, I'll take initiative to help, or just do it myself.
Being the eldest one in the family is not easy, there are certain responsiblities to carry out. And he/she can be a bad boy/girl. I'm very sorry to my dad. Sigh....
I am speechless, I can't think of anything anymore. Other than my family, my girlfriend is the only one who I can rely on, I call her on these days, just to know if she is doing well, eat well, so and so... This sounds weird but... (speechless). Maybe she finds this is annoying... Arrgghhh... What am I doing.... I'm so sorry...
angel, take it easy, is normal that sometime will feel down and talk weird after some incidetns. i think you are a positive thinker and all of these will go off soon. Take care and GOD will bless you,